Motivation, Life Stuff, Trying to be Healthy

This post is something a bit different from usual…although I guess posting anything at all at this point is different from usual šŸ˜› As many of you may know,Ā I’ve beenĀ struggling to maintain motivation in a lot of things. I thought I was quit of smoking, didn’t have one for three years, and then started up again and have been struggling to quit a second time. I started exercising regularly and eating more healthy foods…then got depressed and stopped caring. I didn’t take my medicines for PCOS, I stopped exercising, I binged and snacked and stopped even the most basic of water drinking. I laid around on my butt and didn’t even find the energy to do my writing. (You may have noticed even FEWER posts from me) While I had a few spurts of creativity and spurts of reading and writing, I have been nowhere near regular with any of it.

That is changing this week, today, RIGHT NOW! I have exercised at least 25 minutes 3 out of the last 4 days (I was sick one day…no pushing too hard!). I didn’t want to. I wanted to sit, I wanted to binge watch a show or just play pointless games on my phone. Instead, I went out and exercised. I pushed past the anxiety of ‘what if I can’t’ and ‘what if there are PEOPLE’ and I went. I ignored my anxiety at telling my family I wanted to eat better and not go out as much, they actually really dug the idea! My best friend, who has started exercising for at least 25-30 minutes a day and eating smaller portions etc., has been an amazing support, pushing me to believe I can…and to go and do it!

Today I took my daughter to the library for the summer reading program hour they have on Monday’s. While I waited for their hour to be up, I wandered around and checked a few areas I don’t normally attempt with a 4 yr old. I didn’t mean to check out any books for myself today…I checked out 7. BUT, 3 of those were cookbooks. Mom is a vegetarian and I found 2 cookbooks for her and, more exciting for me, I found a cookbook by Lisa Lillien called “Hungry Girls 200 UNDER 200″…a book of 200 recipes that each have less that 200 calories per serving…and guys, I CANNOT WAIT to try a lot of these! They look and sound amazing.

I’m working out. I’m eating better. I’m drinking more water. I’ve gone almost 3 full days without a cigarette twice in the past week…I have none right now and intend for it to stay that way. I’ve been working on a new novel and getting ready for Camp NaNoWriMo in July. I’m readingĀ a few good books and, man,Ā I am fired up to be the healthiest, mentally and physically, thatĀ I can be! Hopefully, I can keep this up and make it a habit this time!

I would love to hear about your stories….are you working on something like this? Let me know how you stay motivated, how you keep your wits about you and emotions in check, and what your favorite part about the journey is.

Have a great day everyone!

How Do You Motivate?


Do you have it?

Do you want it?

Do you know where to find it?


I answeredĀ no to them all. Not that I don’t want to be motivated. Really, i would love the motivation to get up and go and do and finish etc. etc. etc. However, do I want to get motivated and then go crazy trying to do everything at once…like I usually do? NOPE. No thanks.

SO what next? If I don’t have motivation and I don’t want to get motivated and go crazy, what do I do?

I asked a few friends about motivation and how they handle it.

The top responses were:

  1. I just kind of do it when I have to. Having to motivates me.
  2. I want to get things done so I can do fun things. Rewards motivate me.
  3. I’m trying to get my life together and every small finished task motivates me.
  4. I have no motivation. I don’t care. Let me sit here.

Clearly I have a cross section of friends. So I pose the question to you:

How do you get yourself motivated (in general)? Do you have certain goals or activities that push you along? Do you have certain goals or activities that you need more motivation for?

Motivational Talks

I am extremely proud of myself this morning. It is 8:50 here in the NW Corner of Oklahoma, and I have been up for 2 1/2 hours. I know, there are many of you out there who do that on a daily basis…I do not. I don’t like mornings and mornings seem to return that feeling. If I am not required to get up, I usually don’t. So what prompted my early rise?

Exercising…yup. I woke up this morning because one of my best friends asked me to go to the gym with her when she got off work at 7am. You know she has to be one of my besties because I only laughed for a minute or so before I slowly agreed. And you know what? I got up, I drank a little coffee, I got myself dressed, and I walked on a treadmill for the first time (I think I’ll even go faster next time). I didn’t fall, I didn’t look too funny, and we went swimming in the gym’s pool after 15 minutes on the treadmill. Its been a great morning. I think I know wasn’t my friend, even though she’s great. It wasn’t the endorphin rush from exercising because, let’s face it, I didn’t go that fast. It wasn’t even the boost from swimming, which is one of my favorite things EVER!

The reason this morning feels so great is because I CHOSE to go. I wasn’t forced. No one came in yelling and shaking me until I dragged my behind out of bed and stumbled along with them. No, I CHOSE to get up, I CHOSE to work out, and I CHOOSE to write instead of going back to sleep now. I am CHOOSING a healthier life style because it is time. I am CHOOSING to work on my books instead of mindlessly flip channels because my readers, my friends, you guys…you who I feel so connected to through words on a screen or page…deserve the best and my books deserve that respect and loving attention. I CHOOSE to be more, not a vapid shallow excuse of myself, but a full on no-holds-barred crazy cyclone of Beth.

There were plenty of things holding me back before, and probably plenty that will hold me back again soon, but what are they really? They’re the perceptions I have of what other people may or may not be thinking. They’re societal preconceptions and fading norms that I cling to as excuses. They’re my ‘look’, as in “I’m too fat to go to the gym..” (let me tell you what…I’m a big girl but today there was a woman significantly larger than I..and she was GETTING IT! I was so proud) or “people here don’t really wear those kinds of things…” or…or…or…STOP IT!

Whatever you think is holding you back, is just what youĀ think. It isn’t what the rest of the world thinks, it isn’t even what 90% of the population think about you. Its you and whoever made the snide comment that lives in the back of your mind and gives you an excuse not to. Don’t give excuses, don’t make up reasons, just find a way. Door’s closed? Windows are locked? Check the roof…but don’t actually break in to someone’s home because that is bad juju and you won’t accomplish most of your goals from jail.

Until next time, I hope you have a blessed and phenomenal day! May your motivation and inspiration outweigh your excuses and fear of perspiration.

Rankings and other Nonsense

I don’t write for rankings, I don’t write for money, and I don’t write for accolades. I write for me, and you, and my students, and my family, and that little boy down the street. I write for the dragons who live in my head and refuse to be silenced until I have a pen in my hand and their story unfolding. I write for my own selfish sanity. I don’t write for critics.

All of that being said, however, it is nice to wake up on my birthday (yes folks, I’m officially out of those crazy twenties todays!) and find a 5 star review for my first novel; Dragon on My Neck. That book is my baby, much more so than any of the others I have out right now. I won my first NaNoWriMo with him, went through stacks of rejections with him, and chose the Indie Author life with him. Without DoMN I might not be here. So seeing the recognition there is always amazing…especially today! Then I popped over and checked my rankings.

According to I am ranked at 534,351st on the most popular authors list. I’m not sure how many authors there actually are…but well over 1,000,000 (There are over 12 MILLION books on Amazon so probably much more than that). On the whole, I am feeling very blessed and excited this morning. I was able to write a couple of chapters this weekend, got a good review, and I’m not ranked last on Amazon! Happy Birthday to Me!

What makes you feel blessed and motivated on a Monday morning? I want to know!


I want my words to beĀ read. I want people the world over to see, hear, andĀ feel my stories. I want to be someoneā€™s inspiration as they work to further their dreams. Most of all, I want to leave a legacy for my daughter that she will be proud of.

No, I am not and/or famousā€¦YET!! But the gameā€™s not over. I write every day, whether inspired or just plain tired, and try to find ways to get our ā€˜brandā€™ out to the world.

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I always try to leave a little blessing of hope at the end of my blogs as well. Maybe they arenā€™t having a great day, maybe they need some help, and maybe I can use my motivation for two seconds and give someone a virtual smileā€¦something to brighten and inspire a day just in case someone needs it. Perhaps something like: May your motivation kick you in the backside and help you to have a Blessed and productive weekend!

What motivates you to write/draw/cook/make music/play/create/go to the gym or whatever it is that you do? What is it that pushes you; that grabs a hold of you and just wonā€™t let you go?